Organisation is not my buzz

So I got the word that I can go on this work trip and hte first thing I do is regret, and the second? Panic. I hate organising things, and always end up procrastinating (see below) and then panicking and then paying more for stuff....

Today was a bif of a roller coaster ride through all that and trying to finsih f some last minute stuff which was really getting to me. I feel like I bend over backwards to encourage them and they interpret that as weakness and think they can get away with anything... Still got a free pen at morning tea...oooh errrr. Life is worth living. I guess once I get to Vila things will look different